Self preservation is a funny thing. We build walls when shut out to shut ourselves in…(to an extent)….actually I don’t shut myself in per se ….come to think of it maybe I do.

We dig our heels in, get stuck in our ways; only a radical mind shift can free us. See right here…I’m using plural … not singling myself out at all even though I’m talking from experience. Self preservation.

It’s almost as though acknowledgement leads to cracks in the wall…. and no, we cannot have that….anything but cracks.

It’s as though I have this ‘don’t care’ switch that auto activates when I feel emotionally threatened. Hurt=poker face=walls in that order. Sometimes the switch is delayed by the reaction of processing information and eyes are a dead giveaway. The more delayed the reaction the stronger the walls.

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