I don’t know if I can do two things at once …I can do two things at once- just that I don’t think I can commit to writing poetry when I want to paint. It is so weird and right now it seems like I’m stuck in the middle…but I’m not…I just think I am…need to overcome this mindset. As long as I can remember…I only do one or the other. When I paint…I pour myself into the process…zone out. Writing verse is not the same as chatting (for me). It’s weird…(I keep using that word…it’s not weird) just a process I don’t want to use. To write poetry…I have to let go and I don’t want to. I don’t zone out…I just allow myself to feel…I do feel (it’s getting harder and harder to articulate myself…no it’s not). I write in isolation cos I feel …I don’t know…I think I’m scared of what I’ll find. I have written a poem but…(oh God)…it’s …(I don’t know what to think…). I think I have 3 ‘me’s’…me the poet- can’t lie, me the artist- vivid imagination, me the chatter (verbal diarrhoea). The poem I have written is titled coin and I kinda don’t like it but I can’t change it…(this is so weird). That’s probably why I kinda stopped writing. Arrrrrrhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! I want to always be in control…don’t want my guard down…want to dictate what I feel.
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Spontaneity is the watchword that informs my art practice. My artwork celebrates the energy of abstract expressionism. 'why not?' underlines my creative process. Forget the box! Its obsolete...it's all about whatever shape you want to throw on that dance floor! The process drives my practice!! For me, work well done is work I have thoroughly enjoyed making...work that has made me think, sweat, cry, scream and come back for more!!! Work that gets my back up; pushes me...gives me cause for doubt. Makes me push in order for 'why not?' to become possible. Boundaries? What boundaries? View all posts by designwithflair