Episodes of derealisation are like fading snapshots of reality …. being an outlier…looking from the outside in. Can be disorienting…been told it’s my brain resetting….is it really?
So used to these episodes now….find myself zoning out at will. To me it’s a way to declutter….one minute it’s busy…the next minute…it’s eerily quiet….you are not too sure if the busy exists and you start telling yourself your name. The brain is pretty interesting…. I wonder if derealisation is a glitch or a reset for self preservation.
The funniest or strangest thing about derealisation is no one else knows you’re ‘glitching’ or ‘resetting’ in the moment because muscle memory kicks in and you carry on doing whatever you are doing for a few seconds before staying still. Sometimes I feel I’m in an alternate universe!
I wish more people spoke openly about derealisation! Recently found out my nephew has episodes of derealisation as well. I felt so relieved to be able to talk about it but he felt it wasn’t something to be ‘happy’ about. What if it is? Or maybe not?
My doctor said it’s my over active imagination spilling over into my reality….so reality seems strange because my imagination is taking over. I don’t know what to think of that diagnosis!
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