Are you holding a grudge? About?
Nope. Too exhausting holding a grudge. Weigh too much. Crippling, debilitating, breaking you out in rashes of unresolvededness. Hard pass.
Maybe my younger self would hold a grudge for a minute or two every other day! Upset that my younger brother was mummy’s pet….got away with literally everything!!! But even then it was more a sibling rivalry kind of grudge and my sister and I laugh about it now and find excuses for my mum.
My brother is an only son….and he was a tearaway! She was trying to calm his mischievous impulses the only way she knew…..with over the top mollycoddling! Do I sound like I hold a grudge? Maybe….I hope not.
I absolutely adore my brother and having a son myself I get where my mum was coming from…..with her excessive getaway with murder cards continuously handed to my brother on silver platters. But…what can I say? I don’t have a tearaway son so can’t be judgemental!
My younger self was always ‘but why-ing’ mum’s reaction to my brother’s tearaway tendencies. Still my younger self didn’t hate my brother for it or want to emulate him to get the get-out-of-jail free cards mum was doling out non stop. My sister and I saw her frantic with worry when my brother was being his naughty self and neither of us would want to cause that much pain.
I have no idea why my brother was such a tearaway but I can’t begrudge him all the free passes he got.
Grudges are deadweight….not worth the trouble.
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